I find often that I turned my blog when I feel sad or slightly depressed. Whenever there's some kind of worry or trouble in my life.
To some degree the countdown has begun. The Machinist is nearing the end of his tour were in Guam. I began working again. My son no longer lives at home. My oldest daughter is starting cheerleading. And my youngest daughter misses her daddy so much every day that she just doesn't know what to do with herself. I guess you could say the same goes for me. Sometimes I miss my husband so much that I don't want to do anything. But I've got the kids I can't hole up.
I often wonder what things will be like when he comes back. Will they be remotely the same? Will things be strained? These are the things I military wife worries about when her husband returns from a deployment. Not to be little post appointments but this is three years. Three years of having almost all communication be through email. Three years of often barely speaking. Barely being able to speak because the connection and Guam sucks. Three years and living life as completely separate people. How do you reintegrate after all that time?
Family has passed away. Friends have moved away. So much as happened. I'm excited for him to come home but the same time I'm also scared. I guess I'll just have to take it one day at a time.