Sunday, March 25, 2012

It's been awhile...

It's been a long time since I last blogged and I think it's about time for me to start up again. So here's a quick catch-up.

The husband left out to sea on Friday and the baby has clearly been missing daddy time on Skype.

I finished reading a book today on Kindle for iPhone. It made me cry repeatedly. Though it was a romance book, which are generally wildly away from the context of real life, there were just so many correlations between my husband and I that I just kept crying. At a few points my heart actually hurt.

I love my husband SO much, and it hurts to miss his face every day.

School starts back up tomorrow, well for me anyhow. It's odd to me to go to a school where Spring Break is so early. Where I grew up Spring Break wasn't until April. The kids don't have Spring Break until April here too, but for whatever reason the college had it last week.

Unfortunately for me, I have not completed the reading that I was supposed to do for my Biology class. I know that I can read it between classes tomorrow, but I also know that I will not be able to fully absorb the information about Photosynthesis. Good thing it's what we will be spending the entire week on. At least that I know of.

My best friend is going to Disney for 10 days with her kids. I know that she will have fun, I only wish that I could go. Hopefully one day when I've finished school I can set the money aside to pay for a nice trip out to Disney. At least by then the kids will be able to fully enjoy it and the baby will likely be old enough to remember it.

The baby is getting so much older, and I sometimes find my mind wandering to thinking about having another. Not that it would be the smart thing to do, in fact it would be one of the dumbest things that I could do. Likely, I would end up on bed rest again, and with my husband stationed in Guam, I would be alone. Then there's the fact that unless I were to give birth to the second coming, there is no way that I could get pregnant. See above where the husband is stained in Guam! Not being financially sound right now, it would by no means be smart to bring another life into the world.

I've been thinking that maybe if the husband makes E-6, then maybe we can get some things around the house fixed and sell the house. That would be the removal of a giant weight off of our shoulders. It would also mean that maybe I could move out to the midwest where all of the family is. It's cheaper to live there than it is here, that's for sure! It sure would be AWESOME to be close to family, I've missed that connection in my life for SO long that it sure would be nice to have that again.

Remember that book I talked about reading earlier today? There is a passage from it that sticks with me still. 'I'd like... to belong. To be part of people's lives.' I think that it is exactly what everyone in the world wants. To belong, to a family, to a group of friends. To be a part of people's lives, we all want to know that we have made our mark, not on the world itself, but on the people within it.

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